Apatia, apatia completa e absoluta

First off, April was an reasonable month. I ended up around 3k I think before rb. I ran really hot halfway through but was down 2k in final few days. This was the start of a bigger down swing which I am still on. This probably to some degree has led to a bigger problem. That being for the last week or so I just have no interest in playing. I doubt I played more then 1,000 hands. My broadband connection is really not helping me as it keeps cutting out and if I am playing then poker-room closes and I lose all the tables I was on which is incredibly frustrating. I am not really sure how to go about combating it. All I am doing now is procrastinating and visiting all those time wastings sites that I loved in college. I had improved my disclipline in that regard a lot this year but I have totally let myself go and I don't much care either.
Mentalmente, não estou em um bom lugar.Provavelmente seria um bom momento para ir embora por um tempo e limpar minha cabeça.Talvez eu apenas reserve algo aleatoriamente *encolher de ombros *

Lost e Prison Break terminou esta semana.Este último para sempre e agradeço a Deus por isso.Ele desceu e eu estava apenas assistindo por hábito mais do que qualquer coisa.Terminou de razoavelmente, embora 2 anos tarde demais.Por outro lado, perdido terminou sua penúltima quinta temporada.Na primeira visualização, fiquei muito cego e irritado com a cena final, por que eles tiveram que terminar ali!?Ao ler e assistir novamente, percebi o quanto aconteceu.Foi um final fantástico, os principais destaques sendo a cena de abertura e os últimos 20 minutos.Não faço ideia para onde eles vão para a temporada 6. Mal posso esperar, mas cara, ficarei triste quando desta vez, no próximo ano, tudo é dito e feito.

Confirmação

O Irish Open começou há cerca de 90 minutos e, como eu esperava nas últimas 2 semanas, não estou jogando.
A Bru nos enviou um e-mail e postou nos conselhos seus tão esperados esclarecimentos sobre o que estava acontecendo.A falta de comunicação do seu fim é porque ele afirma que estava conversando com um potencial financiador até o último minuto.Ele também admite que cometeu muitos erros.Isso é óbvio.Para ser franco, parecia que ele não tinha nenhum senso de negócios real.Eu teria colocado um bom dinheiro com o fato de o Lepo não se aproximar dos números que eles esperavam.A promoção de IO foi louca.Eles poderiam facilmente ter feito uma oferta de destaque para muito mais barato do que isso os custaria.Não sou especialista em negócios, mas só foi preciso um pouco de senso comum para ver o óbvio.Claro que cometi alguns erros ao longo do caminho.Apesar de ver que essas ofertas tinham uma sensação boa demais para ser verdadeira, eu ainda fui com ela.Eu também nunca o empurrei o máximo que pude.Então, houve uma boa ingenuidade da minha parte também.

The statement seemed fairly honest although he did try going for he sympathy card at the end by saying his house is likely going to be repossessed. Maybe hoping we do nothing about what has happened. On that point. I have yet to really talk with the others about what we shall do or what we can do. In total Leprechaun have promised 10k to me that I'm not getting. I would have gotten around 6.5k more for splitting first if they kept the 50k guarantee in place and now the 3.5k IO ticket. Psychology it feels different then if I had 10k and it got taken away from me. There is really not much difference but it certainly feels like that.

I am not going to go to the citywest and basically will just ignore the tournament is even going on. For all the hype it really is just another donkament. So I shall treat it like any other weekend.
I am still on target for 30k hands and hoping to keep up to speed.
Good luck for anyone playing the IO!

Scheduling

I've had an reasonable start to the month. I am up a few buy-ins but I am slightly behind my goal of 30k hands. I've been reading a few blogs which have almost made me feel guilty. The amount of hands others put in at ease always dwarfs what I can achieve. With that in mind I am going to put to use the scheduling software I've been using the last few weeks to see how I can approve. I am actually only opening boards and 2+2 once or twice a day instead of refreshing every 30 minutes like I tend to do, it's amazing how much time that 1 can lose just by doing that. I feel if I can have a bit more structure in my day it will help.

1 of my most time consuming tasks is my hand reviews. I review every hand I played from the previous day above a certain limit. This can take up to 2 hours and by the time I'm done it actually feels likes I've played a session and then I need another hour or 2 to "re-couperate" So I am going to alter how I do that. I am going to note the hands I want to review in HM while I am playing, usually only 2 or 3 and then once a week I will do a big review of that week. It will require me raising my threshold of what matters but tbh I don't think I am getting out of it what I should considering the time I put in.

On the leprechaun front. Derek "the clamper" posted yesterday claiming we will still get our tickets. For reference he worked with Bru and also part financed the operation when it got started. I frankly don't believe him and I think he posted it just to ease the pressure on him. He claimed he and his son are also owed a ticket so trying to elicit some sympathy out of us I guess. The worst part of all this is the slight hope Derek and Bru seem to give that it might happen. I wish they just have the balls to come on and say it's not going to happen and here is why. Either way the company is done but you may as well come out and be truthful. That way you can keep some dignity. At the moment it's almost a childlike thought process that if I forget the problem it will go away! The feeling of being in limbo is really head wrecking and I am just looking forward for Friday to arrive so I can be done with this whole process.

Alas March is at a end

I am rather happy to report I had a really good month both poker and non poker wise.
On the poker front, it was my best month results wise as the graph demonstrates. After rakeback I am up over 10k. I had two 4k days and generally ran hot throughout. Still, it feels good to have a month like this especially after having an break even one for February. I am also pleased with my work ethic. That improved a lot. I had a goal to play 25k hands and met it early. I kinda got lax when I met it and played very little over the final 5 days. As I said in earlier entry I worked on my productivity and time keeping and I feel that helped me a lot. Again, I kinda lapsed on that front at the end so I will be making sure in April that there will be no lapsing and I should hopefully get over 30k hands in preferably with similar results. I am trying not to get too excited though. I ran hot and I still feel like I need to work far harder on my game. I planned to work on the maths side a lot more and that never really worked out.

On non poker front, it was outstanding. Of course the highlight was watching Ireland winning the grand slam. Can you spell tension. The F1 season started of with a bang last weekend. I also completed a drama course that I had been doing for 10 weeks. I felt like doing something entirely different that would be a bit of a challenge. I'm really glad I took it. It was everything I hoped it would be. I've already signed up for the next course. A lot of my group are doing the same one which is sweet. It was a really good group so it's pleasing a lot of us are continuing on to the next step.

There was 1 downer though. It's becoming pretty clear that Leprechaun are not going to be delivering on the Irish Open ticket. There has been no contact and all the signs point to the fact that they simply don't have the money. I was always wary of this although I must confess I did think they would deliver a month ago. It's unfortunate and I am not sure what can be done about it. Clearly, it's something that I will have to look into. Still I haven't lost that much out of it. The biggest loss is the opportunity cost of what I would have gotten had I played on a different skin. There wasn't a huge difference but it's enough for me to be pissed about it. It's obviously a pity I will not be playing in the main event considering the money involved but still it doesn't take the gloss of the month for me. It's only a donkament after all.

Goals for April are
Play 30k hands or more.
Work on maths side of my game
Try to improve my productivity and organise my schedule better
Come up with plans for what to do during summer

Keep rollin

This month has been an massive improvement results wise. I am on track for a 10k month which would be super sweet especially after been near break even last month. I had a mega 10 buy in day on Thursday as the graph above demonstrates.
I am running very well though. I've won my fair share of flips, I'd say around 75% so not getting too worked up about it. I am still leaking money in certain spots and need to do a lot of work on my game.

I was reading HJ's blog and he was saying he tends to play 100nl a lot as it he finds it easy to grind it out during the day. This is something I may try to do as it means I can too get more hands in during the days when tables tend to be tougher and it also let me experiment with stuff and see how it works out without losing too much when I do spewy stuff. If I work on that I hope to get over 30k hands in this month and break the 10k barrier

Fevereiro

Bem, tenho que ser honesto.Estou me sentindo bastante desmoralizado em fevereiro e no poker em geral.Eu terminei como o gráfico mostra.Quando você inclui Rakeback, vou terminar, mas como estamos falando da taxa de hora por hora do McDonalds aqui.Eu não ficaria muito agitado por isso se fosse apenas um mês isolado e eu estava dominando tudo antes de mim anteriormente, mas isso não está acontecendo.Eu sou por intenções e propósitos de ponto de partida desde agosto on-line.Isso não é nem perto de bom o suficiente.Fui salvo por Rakeback e o 7K de dividir o Lepo.

Quando olho para o que deu errado ou o que está errado, é difícil colocar um dedo no motivo exato.Nenhuma das minhas estatísticas é terrível.Suponho que posso dizer que corri mal nos primeiros meses, mas é isso que me desmoraliza mais em fevereiro.Eu não fui mal, na verdade, ganhei meu quinhão de flips.A pior parte é que não tenho certeza do que está errado.Se eu sou franco, pode ser que eu sou apenas um marginal para quebrar o jogador e, portanto, experimento balanços voláteis.É isso que as estatísticas me dizem e não faz sentido mentir para mim mesmo.

Então, o que vem depois?Bem, vou continuar por alguns meses de qualquer maneira, ainda tenho objetivos difíceis que gosto de alcançar, mas se algo drástico não acontecer, haverá uma grande mudança.Fazendo isso, sempre deveria ser um trampolim para algo maior e, no momento, está apenas levando a lugar nenhum.

Yay poker!

No meio de fevereiro

Olhei para os meus resultados para o mês até agora ontem à tarde e estou praticamente quebrando até o mês.Eu pensei que estava um pouco mais decepcionado com isso (embora eu corra como um bom na noite passada, então terminei alguns compras), joguei cerca de 15 mil mãos, uma grande melhoria no mês passado.Eu aumentei meu jogo nessa pontuação.Um leve aborrecimento é um resfriado que eu peguei na última semana, que não consigo me livrar, mas não parece estar se desenvolvendo em nada pior.

Sendo um pouco desanimado com meus resultados, decidi olhar para os maiores vencedores no IPOKER do meu holdem gerente DB.O que eu achei mais interessante é que todos os maiores vencedores da 400NL parecem bastante médios.Há caras que eu não me preocuparia em ter na minha mesa.Os tamanhos da amostra ainda são pequenos relativamente falando de 10k-25k em alguns casos e as pessoas podem atingir quentes nessa quantidade de mãos, mas isso vai mostrar para vencer o 400NL não requer nada espetacular.Uma lição para mim.